Sat down and thought about what gives me inspiration and the short answer is - Bloggers.
I am trying to get back into reading (and commenting) more often as I love the support blogging gives me, so I try and give a bit of that back.
I weighed in at 107.2kgs yesterday (Monday morning) and was obviously horrified but optimistic.
I know how to lose the weight and I WILL - End of Story!
I have quite a few big events coming up (Husband's 40th, Husband's school reunion, my 40th, sister's 50th, Mum's 70th and my babies 5th birthday in 2 months) and I want to feel good about myself, have photo's taken without cringing and enjoy myself.
I've decided the best way to do this will take 3 initial steps, first of all STOP BOOZING. I have gotten into a really bad habit of having a couple of drinks most nights and then a couple more on the weekend. I love wine but it doesn't love me so I went back to my original love (bourbon & coke) and it is FULL of sugar plus I can drink TONNES of the stuff.
Second thing is reduce my carbs - mainly BREAD! This is my biggest challenge as I am married to the ultimate BREAD MAN and I seem to be surrounded by bread (fresh, grainy, yummy bread) all day, everyday. This is going to take strength.
And thirdly I need to start doing some form of exercise - anything at the moment will be better than nothing. I have my beloved treadmill sitting here which I really want to get on but am too damn lazy so I figure I will just have to play with the kids more in the backyard to start with until I lose a bit of weight and feel like I can do more than 4 minutes on the damn thing (sounds like an excuse but that's how I'm feeling at present).
I figure if I just set myself 3 things to do, it won't kill me........right?
I'ts now Wednesday morning (12.05am) and since I started this post Tuesday night, I'd better get my butt into bed.
FEELIN GREAT, FEELIN POSITIVE, LONG MAY IT CONTINUE.
Night night.........
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Whoa is me update
Shit March 12 was the last time I updated - SLACKER!
It amazes me that I have to hit rock bottom (or very close to it) before I get myself into action to lose this bloody weight. I jumped on the scales this morning 106.7kg....HELL. What was it, 3 years ago when I hit 110kgs that I couldn't take it anymore and lost the weight (got down to 86.3kg) and now I've managed to creep back up to 106.7kg *sigh* man this weightloss stuff sucks eh?
I know where I'm going wrong (food basically and the shit I'm eating plus the alcohol doesn't help either - oh and don't forget NO EXERCISE) and I know how to lose weight (I've done it dozen's of times) but I just don't. Its very frustrating because I know I can do it (again - I've done it a thousand times) but I just don't ----- why?
When I do get to a weight I'm proud of (with still more to go) and I'm feeling really good about myself I relax and relaxing for me equals trouble. I love it when I'm eating healthy and exercising (mainly because I can exercise and don't feel like a total blob) but I just don't seem to be able to hang onto that feeling.
STORY OF MY LIFE.
I really don't know what to do with myself. All the goals I set myself just disappear and I don't care. I don't know how to stop this yoyo dieting or 'lifestyle change' as alot of people like to call it but basically its dieting for me because I don't make a lifestyle change if I can go back to where I've come from.
Righto, I've finished feeling sorry for myself (for now), I'm going to look up my local weight watchers meeting and think about going back as the only time I lose any substantial amount of weight it is with weight watchers.
My Mum and two older sisters (all overweight) decided 5 weeks ago that we would all support each other and post our weights everyweek so we could see how we are going.
We all had a great first week but since then we have put on everyweek, my eldest sister has given up posting her weight all together.........wonder where I get this weight problem from...hahahaha.
On a brighter note, I have my mother in law (who I get on with famously) and 3 nephew's arriving tomorrow for a week (last week of the school holiday's) and I am looking forward to it as they are great kids (10, 12 & 16) and my mother in law is a fantastic cook and will hopefully give me a break over the week YAY.
Hubby and I get 3 days off a year with our business and 2 of them were Easter Friday and Easter Sunday, so we got our driver to work on Saturday and we headed off to Masterton to visit some old friends. We stayed at a fabulous revamped Solway Park Hotel which is very family friendly and apart from visiting our friend, we didn't leave the complex. There was a driving range (hubby was happy), a trampoline, indoor and outdoor pool (they only used the indoor - bit chilly), spa, games room (which was right next to the bar) and the room was 2 bedrooms with a kitchen and a TV in every room (kids loved it). I'll attach some photo's.
Apart from that it has been the same old thing up here. Loving the Hawkes Bay, loving our new lifestyle and very very happy (apart from the weight of course). Still getting lots of visitors but we love it.
The house is slowly getting donw (between visitors), we have now completed the tiles in the loo and all I need now is something to go up on the wall.
Dad's place has had the bathroom revamped (new floor, toilet and vanity) and just needs his bedroom recarpeted and that's him done.
Our kitchen is the next thing on the agenda but we have been putting it off as it is a major job and we know that once we start, we can't stop. The loungeroom is all done except for new curtains (I just haven't seen the perfect one's yet) and the hallway just needs some pictures or photo's up so it looks less boring.
Okey Dokey I'd better get myself off to bed, I'll just attach some photo's first.
Hope everyone is well, I try and get around to see how everyone is but I have been a bit slack.
It amazes me that I have to hit rock bottom (or very close to it) before I get myself into action to lose this bloody weight. I jumped on the scales this morning 106.7kg....HELL. What was it, 3 years ago when I hit 110kgs that I couldn't take it anymore and lost the weight (got down to 86.3kg) and now I've managed to creep back up to 106.7kg *sigh* man this weightloss stuff sucks eh?
I know where I'm going wrong (food basically and the shit I'm eating plus the alcohol doesn't help either - oh and don't forget NO EXERCISE) and I know how to lose weight (I've done it dozen's of times) but I just don't. Its very frustrating because I know I can do it (again - I've done it a thousand times) but I just don't ----- why?
When I do get to a weight I'm proud of (with still more to go) and I'm feeling really good about myself I relax and relaxing for me equals trouble. I love it when I'm eating healthy and exercising (mainly because I can exercise and don't feel like a total blob) but I just don't seem to be able to hang onto that feeling.
STORY OF MY LIFE.
I really don't know what to do with myself. All the goals I set myself just disappear and I don't care. I don't know how to stop this yoyo dieting or 'lifestyle change' as alot of people like to call it but basically its dieting for me because I don't make a lifestyle change if I can go back to where I've come from.
Righto, I've finished feeling sorry for myself (for now), I'm going to look up my local weight watchers meeting and think about going back as the only time I lose any substantial amount of weight it is with weight watchers.
My Mum and two older sisters (all overweight) decided 5 weeks ago that we would all support each other and post our weights everyweek so we could see how we are going.
We all had a great first week but since then we have put on everyweek, my eldest sister has given up posting her weight all together.........wonder where I get this weight problem from...hahahaha.
On a brighter note, I have my mother in law (who I get on with famously) and 3 nephew's arriving tomorrow for a week (last week of the school holiday's) and I am looking forward to it as they are great kids (10, 12 & 16) and my mother in law is a fantastic cook and will hopefully give me a break over the week YAY.
Hubby and I get 3 days off a year with our business and 2 of them were Easter Friday and Easter Sunday, so we got our driver to work on Saturday and we headed off to Masterton to visit some old friends. We stayed at a fabulous revamped Solway Park Hotel which is very family friendly and apart from visiting our friend, we didn't leave the complex. There was a driving range (hubby was happy), a trampoline, indoor and outdoor pool (they only used the indoor - bit chilly), spa, games room (which was right next to the bar) and the room was 2 bedrooms with a kitchen and a TV in every room (kids loved it). I'll attach some photo's.
Apart from that it has been the same old thing up here. Loving the Hawkes Bay, loving our new lifestyle and very very happy (apart from the weight of course). Still getting lots of visitors but we love it.
The house is slowly getting donw (between visitors), we have now completed the tiles in the loo and all I need now is something to go up on the wall.
Dad's place has had the bathroom revamped (new floor, toilet and vanity) and just needs his bedroom recarpeted and that's him done.
Our kitchen is the next thing on the agenda but we have been putting it off as it is a major job and we know that once we start, we can't stop. The loungeroom is all done except for new curtains (I just haven't seen the perfect one's yet) and the hallway just needs some pictures or photo's up so it looks less boring.
Okey Dokey I'd better get myself off to bed, I'll just attach some photo's first.
Hope everyone is well, I try and get around to see how everyone is but I have been a bit slack.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Crikey its been forever
WOW I didn't realise it had been January since I last updated - what a slacker.
Weights up (103.9kgs putting me back to 29/12/08) which means I didn't get my new top when Mum was here from Oz.
I did however manage to raid her suitcase and found 2 new tops she had that I loved, so she let me have them......LOL.
I have had visitor after visitor and even though I do really love having people stay - I'M OVER IT!!
The last lot of guests (3 couples up from Wellington) came for the Lionel Richie concert at the Mission Estate Winery that got cancelled after us sitting in the pouring rain for nearly 2 hours. Mind you, we had had quite a bit to drink by them and had resigned ourselves to the fact that it didn't matter what we did we were soaked to the bone, so we actually ended up having a great time (even without Lionel). We ended up coming back home, had a huge feed of everything you could think of and then decided nightclubbing at midnight was a great idea..........ah NOT!
Apart from that there hasn't been a great deal going on, just the usual (kids to school, clean the house, data entry for a couple of hours a day blah blah blah).
Sorry this is such a boring post after such a long time....hahaha
I bought some weight watchers cereal and yoghurt (again) and am going back to basics with my food. The only way I have ever lost weight is on weight watchers (even at home by myself) so I will go back to the tried and true method.
Trying not to stress too much about it but am just soooooooo sick of being in this situation again this year when I promised myself I would be at goal and enjoying life now.
Andrew's 40th in August so I am going to try and lose as much as possible (not putting a number on it) by then.
Over and out.
Weights up (103.9kgs putting me back to 29/12/08) which means I didn't get my new top when Mum was here from Oz.
I did however manage to raid her suitcase and found 2 new tops she had that I loved, so she let me have them......LOL.
I have had visitor after visitor and even though I do really love having people stay - I'M OVER IT!!
The last lot of guests (3 couples up from Wellington) came for the Lionel Richie concert at the Mission Estate Winery that got cancelled after us sitting in the pouring rain for nearly 2 hours. Mind you, we had had quite a bit to drink by them and had resigned ourselves to the fact that it didn't matter what we did we were soaked to the bone, so we actually ended up having a great time (even without Lionel). We ended up coming back home, had a huge feed of everything you could think of and then decided nightclubbing at midnight was a great idea..........ah NOT!
Apart from that there hasn't been a great deal going on, just the usual (kids to school, clean the house, data entry for a couple of hours a day blah blah blah).
Sorry this is such a boring post after such a long time....hahaha
I bought some weight watchers cereal and yoghurt (again) and am going back to basics with my food. The only way I have ever lost weight is on weight watchers (even at home by myself) so I will go back to the tried and true method.
Trying not to stress too much about it but am just soooooooo sick of being in this situation again this year when I promised myself I would be at goal and enjoying life now.
Andrew's 40th in August so I am going to try and lose as much as possible (not putting a number on it) by then.
Over and out.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Weigh in day - Day 14
101.4kgs which is a loss of 600grams this week.
How do I feel about that......*taps fore finger on chin* I dunno really???
Yes I lost 600 grams which is fabulous but I was mostly on par with my shakes etc this week and expected WAY MORE, anyway a loss is a loss is a loss....right.
So 1.8kgs down in the past fortnight.....excellent!!
My mate goes for her op tomorrow and I am thinking about her constantly *waves*.
She has done brilliantly on her pre-op diet for the past fortnight and just continues to blow me away.
Had more visitors leave today and then we should have another one on Tuesday (only for a day) and then nobody for a week and a half.
Adam went back to kindy today and was so excited as he has missed his mates.
Reece goes back next Monday and I am really excited as he is driving me nuts with his questions "what can I do now", "I'm bored", "when can I go back to school"....6 weeks is WAY too long a holiday for that one.
Anyway I can't hang around here all day, I have work to do.
How do I feel about that......*taps fore finger on chin* I dunno really???
Yes I lost 600 grams which is fabulous but I was mostly on par with my shakes etc this week and expected WAY MORE, anyway a loss is a loss is a loss....right.
So 1.8kgs down in the past fortnight.....excellent!!
My mate goes for her op tomorrow and I am thinking about her constantly *waves*.
She has done brilliantly on her pre-op diet for the past fortnight and just continues to blow me away.
Had more visitors leave today and then we should have another one on Tuesday (only for a day) and then nobody for a week and a half.
Adam went back to kindy today and was so excited as he has missed his mates.
Reece goes back next Monday and I am really excited as he is driving me nuts with his questions "what can I do now", "I'm bored", "when can I go back to school"....6 weeks is WAY too long a holiday for that one.
Anyway I can't hang around here all day, I have work to do.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Day 13 (of 14)
Ok the scales were back down a wee bit this morning (after my pill worked) so I'm pleased about that.
The weather has been really hot so I drank about 3 litres of water yesterday - no kidding!
We are having a BBQ tonight which is great because I'm ready for a nice big salad (which I haven't had for a few days) and a juicy piece of steak.....yum.
I have a 21st to go to tonight but I've bailed out as we have my father-in-law here (who was also invited) and we haven't seen him in 5 years so we really want some quiet time with him as he is leaving for Aussie tomorrow.
PLUS I am WAY PAST going to 21st, I enjoyed it in my 20's but now I'm nearly 40 I think I'll pass. There is going to be 70+ people and most of them (at least 50) are the birthday boys age....eeeek!
Another beautiful day in Hawkes Bay (30+ degrees) and I am very comfortable now walking around in singlet tops. I'm really pissed at myself that I haven't worn singlet tops for YEARS (since my early teens) because I had such a hang up on how big my arms were (still are but I don't really care now).
It is soooooooo much cooler than I expected and I am loving the extra variety I now have when I go shopping.
Right, there's vacuuming to do so I'm off (exciting eh?).
The weather has been really hot so I drank about 3 litres of water yesterday - no kidding!
We are having a BBQ tonight which is great because I'm ready for a nice big salad (which I haven't had for a few days) and a juicy piece of steak.....yum.
I have a 21st to go to tonight but I've bailed out as we have my father-in-law here (who was also invited) and we haven't seen him in 5 years so we really want some quiet time with him as he is leaving for Aussie tomorrow.
PLUS I am WAY PAST going to 21st, I enjoyed it in my 20's but now I'm nearly 40 I think I'll pass. There is going to be 70+ people and most of them (at least 50) are the birthday boys age....eeeek!
Another beautiful day in Hawkes Bay (30+ degrees) and I am very comfortable now walking around in singlet tops. I'm really pissed at myself that I haven't worn singlet tops for YEARS (since my early teens) because I had such a hang up on how big my arms were (still are but I don't really care now).
It is soooooooo much cooler than I expected and I am loving the extra variety I now have when I go shopping.
Right, there's vacuuming to do so I'm off (exciting eh?).
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Day 11 (of 14)
Bloody scales were up 300 grams this morning - WTF?
This is getting harder and harder when I thought it would get easier.
When I did this the week before Xmas, I lost 2.7kgs in 1 week now I'm going to find it hard to hit 2 kgs in two weeks...grrrr.
Anyway I am feeling better in myself which is a bonus and I am definately more active.
Can't go to the loo again this week (happened about the same time last week) but I'm going to take something to 'help me along' this week as I feel horrile last week after 4 days.
Work is really busy at the moment as we are in a tourist town and everyone eats bread (our business) so we are busy busy busy which is all good.
I also had the neighbours kids (11, 8 & 5) today and they have just left and taken my kids with them (gotta love that) so I have a bit of peace and quiet which is bliss after having 5 kids in the house most of the day.
I got some chicken breasts for dinner which I'm going to have with some stir fry vege's (looking forward to that) and I've had my 2 shakes for the day.
My water intake has slacked off the last couple of days (its 2pm and I've only had half a litre today) so I need to get that back up.
This is getting harder and harder when I thought it would get easier.
When I did this the week before Xmas, I lost 2.7kgs in 1 week now I'm going to find it hard to hit 2 kgs in two weeks...grrrr.
Anyway I am feeling better in myself which is a bonus and I am definately more active.
Can't go to the loo again this week (happened about the same time last week) but I'm going to take something to 'help me along' this week as I feel horrile last week after 4 days.
Work is really busy at the moment as we are in a tourist town and everyone eats bread (our business) so we are busy busy busy which is all good.
I also had the neighbours kids (11, 8 & 5) today and they have just left and taken my kids with them (gotta love that) so I have a bit of peace and quiet which is bliss after having 5 kids in the house most of the day.
I got some chicken breasts for dinner which I'm going to have with some stir fry vege's (looking forward to that) and I've had my 2 shakes for the day.
My water intake has slacked off the last couple of days (its 2pm and I've only had half a litre today) so I need to get that back up.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Day 9 (of 14)
I've given myself a bit of a 'talking to' because I was letting a few little things creep in which is silly because I didn't need them but I was just being lazy.
I feel much better now and can't believe how well I can do when I focus.
I need to be super organised and its easy (well not easy but EASIER).
I've FINALLY been to the loo and feel a whole lot lighter which the scales are also telling me and I was 700 grams down from yesterday morning's weigh in.
I'm doing this 'shake' thing in support of a very good friend (which I have mentioned before) and I must say she is doing BRILLIANTLY and I am blown away by her dedication. Her mother (also another friend) is also doing it in support of her girl and is also 'creaming it'!.
Hi girls *big waves*, so excited for you.
Our visitors which were going to arrive yesterday (after our 1st lost of visitors left at 4pm last night) are now coming on Thursday which is great as it will give me a bit of time to get my house back in order before they arrive.
I took Reece out for the day today (Adam's turn tomorrow) and we did the usual McDonalds (him not me) and then he wanted to go shopping as he got some money from his cousin and Nanny in Australia he wanted to spend. He definatley takes after his Mum as we were out for about 3 hours going from shop to shop and he loved every minute of it. I'm taking Adam out tomorrow but he will walk into the 1st shop he see's, grab something and want to come home (just like his father..haha).
Right I've had over 2 litre's of water today and need to go to the loo again (visit 760) so I'll love ya and leave ya for tonight.
I feel much better now and can't believe how well I can do when I focus.
I need to be super organised and its easy (well not easy but EASIER).
I've FINALLY been to the loo and feel a whole lot lighter which the scales are also telling me and I was 700 grams down from yesterday morning's weigh in.
I'm doing this 'shake' thing in support of a very good friend (which I have mentioned before) and I must say she is doing BRILLIANTLY and I am blown away by her dedication. Her mother (also another friend) is also doing it in support of her girl and is also 'creaming it'!.
Hi girls *big waves*, so excited for you.
Our visitors which were going to arrive yesterday (after our 1st lost of visitors left at 4pm last night) are now coming on Thursday which is great as it will give me a bit of time to get my house back in order before they arrive.
I took Reece out for the day today (Adam's turn tomorrow) and we did the usual McDonalds (him not me) and then he wanted to go shopping as he got some money from his cousin and Nanny in Australia he wanted to spend. He definatley takes after his Mum as we were out for about 3 hours going from shop to shop and he loved every minute of it. I'm taking Adam out tomorrow but he will walk into the 1st shop he see's, grab something and want to come home (just like his father..haha).
Right I've had over 2 litre's of water today and need to go to the loo again (visit 760) so I'll love ya and leave ya for tonight.
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